7 years ago, I had a great job, beautiful apartment by the forest and more money than I needed. On the outside I had all the trappings of success, and a steady long term relationship with my first love.
And I set it all on fire. Not at once, in a dramatic blaze. Little by little, I took the pieces apart. Something about my job didn’t feel right for me. To this day, I can’t logically explain to anyone why. It’s deeper than logic.
I sold what I could, left my job and took a two-year trip around the world. The soon-to-be ex-boyfriend came with me. Together we chased magical experiences. Dancing under a full moon, with a group of tantric yogis, at an ashram in Nepal. Vomiting into a puke bucket, in the darkness of an ayahuasca ceremony, in the sacred valleys of Peru. Wasting days, taking the beauty of Indonesian beaches, or Costa Rican rainforests. A time of my life I’d never take back.
Yet still, never fully satisfied, Always feeling kind of alone. Disconnected, even from the partner I spent every day with.
We returned home, 6 months after the 2020 pandemic hit. Our relationship didn’t last much longer. Eventually the constant fighting wore us down, and in one big and completely ridiculous fight, everything fell apart.
Talk about completely lost! Everything I worked for and went to school for gone, bank account empty. The person I spent 8 years with, from 18-25, out of my life. Moving back in with my parents. Feeling totally broken.
One cosmic joke hanging over my head. A comment made in a moment of sheer bravado, haunting me. The memory of sitting around the table with my friends at 16 years old. Talking about where we wanted to be at 25 years old. I announced loudly, to my bewildered friends, “I don’t want to know what the fuck is going on at 25, I don’t want to have my life figured out in any way”
Welp. I got my wish. Thank you universe!
The truth is, that’s where the magic happened. Tarot, a skill I picked up traveling, became the tool that kept my head above water. Reminding me I’m doing the right things, even if I can’t see through this dark period. That following your heart is always the right path.
I found a way to take this skill and make it my job! Reading tarot cards at corporate retreats, stunning weddings, and intimate parties. I met an amazing man, simply walking down the street, in the neighbourhood I grew up in.
I created a life that I love, that feels right. Again, In ways I could probably never explain.
Now I’m sitting here, while the true love of my life, my baby boy, eats his crackers. And I’m thanking god, that I followed every nonsensical feeling I’ve ever had.
A new way to work with me coming soon! Ascension pathway, for the woman seeking change.
The Empress Tarot 